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stressed out again.
neverending deadline, assignments n stress.

its again those negative feelings.
i jux submitted a thesis assignment which im not veri confident of getting gd grades.
had a grp meeting at 7pm-10pm todae.
an extremely frustrating one working wif a freaking intelligent but perfectionist male.
i dun wish to elaborate tt here, cos i just updated my module blog(Learning Journal) where im required to date the feelings n review each meetings n stuff for tt mod.

anw,im feeling...unhappy.
for not having enough time for myself even just for rest, to have moments free frm stress n work. for not having enough time for my family, Nick, Bianca n Him.
im realli not happy where i am now n wat im doing.
i was telling a team mate as we headed home together tt i regret coming to SMU.
it doesnt seem lk the place for me although i tot it was.a competitive educating environment.
but i reali no longer feel so.

i neva thought of feeling inferior as i compete in such an extremely competitive skol.
i neva thought tt putting in my best wudnt make me satisfied.
i neva thought i wudnt wanna be there.
i neva thought i'd lose so much freedom n time to spend wif my loved ones.
i neva thought of all these.

im trapped in this dilemma for a while.
its onli 4th wk into skol. n its reali hell there.
i wud love to tell myself get a life out there.

but wat is it tt You want out of want?Wat is expected of me?
shud i be leaving everything up to You after giving all my best?



BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/10/2008 12:22:00 AM :: link

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