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Saturday, January 14, 2006

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not in a good mood.
having a slight headache now maybe due to the drinks.

the whole dae was supposed to go on fine.
esp when i had a nice dinner with my Niaima.
having all the fun n laughing.
but my mood went downhill when during the ministry session, my jet/jack came out.
the noise again.n it was becos i was stepping on it.

realli pissed with it.

so after the session i just stone away.
kept thinking about the jet.
why can't i do a week without noise pollution from the jet.
WHY.

had Gus, Aly n Nicholas doing all the things to make me smile.[Thanks all]
but i was still feeling down.
just wanted to rant everything out abt the jet.
n freaking get all jets out of my sight.

anw, so i decided to go with the band to drink.
n i dragged Nicholas to walk all the way to 2 7-elevens to get myself a Bacardi drink.
[Nicholas-thanks]

tasted fine with me.
but the alcohol dint felt strong.
btw, during the dinner i already had a martini cocktail.
but both of which i dun feel knocked out.

but nevertheless, im still glad to hav had the dinner with Bianca.
had quite a bit of catching up to do.
n drinking.hahaha.
just gotta drink with her.
it's realli fun..n she always order new drinks for me.;)

but when she was abt to leave, got a little worried.
she realli looked tired.
n shortly after she left, i was already missing her.

anw, i wish someone would buy me a wireless/jetless/jackless acoustic guitar.
so i dun hav to worry about it anymore.

Bianca: Thanks for the dinner.i enjoyed it as much as i always do with u.
sorry that u seem to had to rush just to meet me earlier for dinner.
u're the best!i miss you still.=)

my new found nice song.
has nice lyrics too.

Craig David-Unbelievable

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 1/14/2006 12:09:00 AM :: link

Friday, January 13, 2006

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YO.
haha.
todae im a bit earlier in posting my entry 1.26am onli.haha.

anw, just editted a little of my POM proj, n im done!
just had additional 15 songs to my ipod list.=D
cos of Yuting, my classmate/part of the clique.hahaha.

anw, i got a bloody shock just now.
i opened a email from Bianca, it has 3 media files.
i d/l the first one n it said something abt a mysterious figure.so i quickly closed before it played.
den my stupid curiousity got me, n i opened the second one n kena shocked.
hahaha.
curiosity kills the cat they say.hahaha.

was in a state of shock for a while.hahaha.
i dislike getting this kinda emails.
cos im very no guts.esp with this kinda things.

so anw, after getting the shock, i went to delete the whole email.so i cant be curious anymore.haha.
n i smsed tt girl.sort of teasing her la.hahaha.
realli scared the hell out of me.
n it was 12.30+am just now, when i opened it.

anw, i got back EWS ICA1 results[finally after 1+ months].results fairly ok-69/100=C+.
cos it's english i dun realli expect an A.maybe jux a B.

tml there's no skol, so tink i will stay home n study for Stats ICA2,on mon.
den go pay my hp bills n dinner with Niaima!!hahaha.YAY!
tml's gonna be another good day.

oh ya, did i mention.
this morning i realli had to drag myself out of bed to skol.
realli tired, n i dropped my Guess watch.=
den i was the butt joke in the morning.
i was sleeping before class starts, den Zhijuan came to ask me for my econs tut.
den i was just answering her,"ya.ya.ok.ok." while im sleeping.haha.
den there she was standing waiting for my paper, n i was sleeping away.
n everyone started laughing la.
but was tinking if it was realli tt funny.hahaha.
maybe it was but i was too tired to laugh.

i was even dozing off in front of my com while doing reserach for my project during break time.
having barely 4 hours of sleep for the past few days.
onli myself to blame.
fancy coming online to blog at 2+am.

but i seem to realli hav to tire myself out to sleep at night.
anw, i even missed my shows in the evening.
by the time i reached home 4+, i was realli sleepy.
n i jux slept with the tv on.haha.
woke up at 9pm jux in time to watch Love Concierge.

ok im pooped now.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 1/13/2006 01:26:00 AM :: link

Thursday, January 12, 2006

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hello!
im in a super good mood todae.
hahaha.
cos i managed to meet up with Bianca n another friend for dinner before heading for prac.
haha.=D.

im on all smiles now.
cos im satisfied.haha.

anw, the dinner was pretty tiring.
cos i went to meet them straight after project which was straight after 9-3pm lessons.
so i had my Niaima like cutting the meat for me.n realli feeding me.
i was realli shacked by the time i got to see them.
walking all over feeling a little lost in the city.hahaha.

n i drank again.
had some funny cocktail.tt has like salt in it.but it was quite good.
wasn't very strong,dint knock out.
but during prac my face felt hot.bt definitely not as burning as Bianca's!haha.
hers was on fire.haha.

n den we walked so bloody fast to sfx.breathing in cold air,
i couldnt catch back my breathe for a while.
hahaha.

anw,everything went well for prac.it was the last prac we going to see Aunty Syl cos shes on maternity leave till May.
n before she left she kept teasing me.
she said this," Joyce, you must smile more often.Do you know it's a talent.You shouldn't keep that talent to yourself..."
den i was like realli laughing away.

so i tink everything was well la.
btw, i still dint dare to pluck the jet out personally.i got Gus to do it for me again.haha.

anw, i tink todae theres like stamp on my eye.
i dint see Bianca when she was in front of me when i was going to meet her.
i dint see Gus right in front of me waving bye to me.hahaha.
think realli stoned todae.

but im still so happy todae.though im shacked n tired.
tink to hav met Bianca before the prac was the onli thing i felt great about for the past 1 week.
its been a long week.

though we sms each other almost everydae, we still miss each other.
which obviously proves tt technology can never replace certain things-the real presence.=P.

n it did felt realli long since i saw her, but actually it was onli 1 week ago.
i tink she felt the same way too.haha.

realli happy to have seen tt girl la.
haha.
things slowly gets off my mind when im with her.
like i was so bloody uptight abt my schedules, ICAs, projects.
but after saying once, everything worrying will eventually be off my mind.
which is good.
cos worrying doesn't help.=D

the dinner was fabulous.not in terms of food but the company.=)

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 1/12/2006 02:05:00 AM :: link

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

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hello.
it's early morning now.like2.35am.haha.

jux bathed as usual.
todae's Hari Raya Haji[i think].n i was home all dae watching tv and doing my tutorials.
haha.how interesting.
the tv was on since i woke up 1+pm till 11.30pm.haha.

nothing much to say todae.
except tt i had some "re-enacting" negative thoughts about someone while bathing.

->it's raining again!<-

back to the topic.
something like flashbacks.
the words the person said, things she did n happened.
mainly the strongly negative words she used on me in the past.

just crossed my mind.
how i actually managed to forgive n even forget for a while.
how i chose the path out of the options HE gave.
it's quite unbelievably true and happened on me.

i know myself well enough tt most of the time there are so-called better options opened to me.
most of which would actually oppose my ideas and go against my principles in doing things.
so yet often, i would choose the path i want which goes with my ideas etc.

but that time round, i actually chose a path which did not follow my "ideal" way of solving things.
i chose the one which i felt God would want me to/would take and people around me would be happy to see me taking it.

i was satisfied with the "results" n happy until recently that person spoke to me again.
we talked online n smsed, about a matter which was not realli directly related to me.
it had to do with my close friend.

after that,i tink it just made me open my eyes wide to see things clear.
putting words into my mouth after twisting them to another meaning.
always making herself seemingly knowledgable which i dun realli think she is anymore.
having little faith in me.
are all these right, is this how it should be?
how a friend should be seeing us?

the only thing i've been doing when i see her, is ignoring her presence.
i think its right and wrong.
n it's the best solution for now.

im not pissed or anything now.
not in any particular mood as i post.
just shaking my head n pondering/reflecting.haha.=D

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 1/11/2006 02:35:00 AM :: link

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

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heeeellllooo.
having on-off cramps.think its coming.haha.
=P.

anw,todae[Monday] has been quite a good day.
im pleased with myself.
for paying so much attention in Microecons lecture about Monopoly despite having missed the first part, Perfect competition,last lecture.
n i caught what the lecturer was talking about.including her recaps on last lecture.=)
n i stayed in the lecture even during the break to read up on the last lecture, do notes etc.
so guai.so nan de.haha.

but i think is becos i was quite moody in the morning.not enough sleep i suppose.
dint wanna talk or move since i got into the lecture room.haha.
and got back Business Software Application(BSA) ICA2 results.did well.87/100.
im actually quite surprise dim doing so well for BSA.ICA1 i got 48/50.
or maybe it's because my partner's good at it?hahaha.don't know.but either one.
I Thank God for it.haha.=D

i have just completed my POM project,due next week.
so another point for the pleased me.haha.
anw, i foresee that for the coming weeks im going to be super stressed.

next week(16 Jan week)-Stats ICA2, POM presentation proj.
(23 Jan week)-Microecons presentation proj, Business Software Application ICA 3.
(30 Jan week)-EWS presentation proj.
somewhere mid Feb-EWS last ICA
20Feb to 23 Feb-Exams

and u see how bloody packed the timetables are.
anw, good news is i found out i've only got 4 examinable modules.haha.EWS is all ICAs not exam.haha.

anw, so is all the projects from now till end of Chinese New Year.
which means even on Chinese New Year week i might just end up rushing my EWS project.
anw, i've yet started on Econs and EWS project.
most likely next wed on will begin the meetings etc.

im surviving.back on land.

todae would have been a perfect day,despite of the rain, had i been able to see my Niaima.
the most perfect day for a start of 2006.
i think the great sense of accomplishment todae realli gave tt boost to my dae.
cos of the useless feelings i've had the past few daes.
but now, it doesnt seem to be there.

for helping me hold on and go through these few daes I've only got 2 people i must thank.
the 2 people i treasure most.
God and Bianca.
=)

Bianca: Thanks a lot girl.for that chat the other dae.it did help me gradually forget tt i was feeling useless and down.=)

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 1/10/2006 02:10:00 AM :: link

Sunday, January 08, 2006

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sorry abt the very negative post earlier on.
was going way mad about the thing.

it'e pretty late now.2.53am.
just had a bath, and thought about my Niaima.
haha.

miss tt girl.
like as always.haha.it's so usual.
sometimes even just the thought of her makes me laugh and smile.haha.=)
she's so kuku.hahaha.but kuku in a good way.haha.=P

when my mind is empty i will always think about hanging out with her.
i would say being with her is the best company/accompany.(sounds weird)
i may be upset or down but i will still be able to laugh and smile.
when im with her, i can be just me.naturally.
n she's just her.tts wat makes me most glad when we hang out.haha.

well, cos im pretty conscious of wat others think of me at times.
so i end up wearing a mask.rather masks.
haha.like school friends, church, relatives.
different sides of me.most of which i think i behave very "decently".haha.
there're exceptions like at home.muahaha.

yeah.
also,i tink we're pretty similar.not toking abt looks of course.haha.
but in terms of character mostly.

my Niaima.=)

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 1/08/2006 02:51:00 AM :: link