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im tired out of all the results taking,all the problems im facing physically n mentally and wif the unrest case of the "pms squabbling online".

im realli tired.someone either shoot me or go out wif me.when i come home i get reminded of online pms case.in skol im damn upset wif my results. n physically im dying.my heart isnt working veri well often.i get heart pain n all the short breath i feel at times..
my lungs r dying on me.im not kidding.

i jux broke down in skol todae when Jo told me tt no one passed A Maths.told me right before assembly.n i jux broke in tears silently.but i couldnt control it during first lesson SS.n jux cried in the toilet.Yang was wif me.n my mood went roller coasting again.one min,happy laughing away,next angry wif lucinda n steph n next i get sad again.
i guess i jux destroyed my life.im sad.kill me.im gonna sob again n get swollen eyes. kill me.
anw,realli no one passed amaths.mrs ong verified tt before dismissal.im realli disappointed so maybe im too ambitious.wateva it is i wun make it to JC.

was pissed wif lucinda.cos she dint want to collect the CCA verification forms weeks ago when me n Jerlyn already initiated to hand in n asked her collect,she told us no need no need cos she oso neva bring!todae handed it in n me n Jerlyn got scolding n not onli tt scolding.we mite not get tt point.wifout tt point i will fail my CCA.i need one more point.n she had to destroy it.if mrs ku dun key in,i will kill lucinda leong.im dead serious.
cca points can replace one of my subject wich i did badly.

anw my results:
EL-49.3[darn ass]{D7}
EM-65[pulled up]{B3}
Chinese O's-B3
Science-42.5{E8}
Combine Humans-43{E8}
A Maths-Failed no results yet
CCA-now{D7}

ok realized i cant go anywhere even MI.freak me.i tot when others counted for me i could go MI wif L1R4 of 20++.ok nvm.kill me shoot me.
im hungry n im worn out.pooped.handling so many things/obstacles at this time realli is killing me.i need shoulder to cry again.kill me.

the unrest case is killing me jux as much.im tired handling it.she doesnt want to come online anymore in msn or read blogs anymore.ttz another burden.cos i've jux caused so many ppl to be unable to tok to her online n etc.i mite be selfish to ask her not to do tt[dun come msn or wat] cos afterall i was the idiot who caused tt trouble.but den again i dun wish to be upset anymore cos im upset enuf now.im contradictive.i dunnoe wat i hope she CAN DO.

but now,i hope to go out n take a rest.im tired.i need a shoulder.


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Joyce

Joyce at 8/26/2004 02:42:00 PM :: link

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