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Friday, June 09, 2006

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just had a nice conversation with Waiaung.

she did sort of reminded me tt i can do something about wat's happened.
i can do something.but theres no appropriate situation for me to do so.
i've stopped mourning about it for a few daes already.close to a week.

i've taken the first move.but if i dun see any move taken by them so far, i see no reason why i should continue.
i always say it takes 2 hands to clap.sometimes theres a need for one hand to come forward first, but if the other hand doesnt wanna come forward,how to eventually create the clap?

im in a dilemma now.
i can't hear my heart.
im thinking about a lot of things.
to continue with wat i decided,which is to wash my hands off or wat?
continue to hang loose in the air waiting?

how long should i wait.
how much more nonsense should i n can i take.
washing my hands off during these few daes did made me feel so much lighter.
but will i regret?

suddenly all the questions comes popping out in my mind.
nevertheless,thank u Waiaung for the conversation.this proves tt it made me think further.=)

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 6/09/2006 11:13:00 PM :: link

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hi.hols are finally here.im finally able to relax.
its been projects n ICA this whole week like i've mentioned.
pretty drained out.cos since yesterdae theres a stay-in retreat going on at CSC.
todae it started at 7am.n i thought i was supposed to be there onli at 7am.but actually it's supposed to be 6.30am.haha.
so i was late.

den i headed down to skol for biz finance lecture.something gd happened.
i was waiting for a cab wif Bianca.but there was simply no cab in sight.n i was gonna be late.
den came along one of the uncle who noes my mum.i noe him by hes face but not his name la.im not veri close to him.so he drove out of CSC n saw us waiting for a cab.n he offered to send me to skol.Thank God.
anw, it was a pretty nice ride.he was telling me about how he knew my mum when my mum just entered n everything.
he just lost his job,cos hes company is closing down.yeah.pretty saddening but im sure God will Bless him.=).

on wed, i met up with Bianca.was realli a fun dae with her.as usual.haha.
looking around bookstores searching for books n passion most of all.hahaha.;P.
den we headed to the airport to eat the Popeyes.someting like a fast food restaurant.wasnt too bad.but just tt it was veri filling.

tt girl's been pretty tired out i suppose.by projects n stuff.not to mention she hasnt been having enough rest.
these 2 daes shes oso been playing for the retreat.
n i tot tt it was realli admirable for her commitment.
to hav to wake up early,leave for work n den onli catch a few hrs of sleep.i always admired her sense of commitment.giving whenever she could.

anw,things has changed in a way tt made me feel pretty disappointed.
when i trust ppl, it turned out tt i shoudnt have.
i feel gullible.cos its as if i've been hoaxed into it.
ppl think im smart.but i realized,often, im outsmarted.
my intuition neva seems to be right either.

im just a little disappointed.
but im fine.i won't fall cos of this,neither will i allow myself to do so.
cos theres someone who needs me.

be strong.everything will be fine no matter how negative it may seem now.
trust the Lord.dun forget tt HE has sent us to u.so u have us no matter wat.=).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 6/09/2006 08:17:00 PM :: link

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

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tired again.
but i realli feel like blogging.tts why here i am.

hectic week.5 things are/ some were due this week.
2 of which is down.french oral presentation n ICT lab presentation.
both of which i thought went pretty well. at least to me it did.

tml theres biz law ICA.havent tried out the tutorial.will be doing so later.
feeling a little jittery about it.usually by todae, i would hav studied finish biz law including doing the tuts.
but cos theres so many things due every week, im realli too cropped up.
had to force my eyes open to write my biz law notes last nite.

todae dint go for rtm lecture cos i was realli too tired.
i woke up n went back to sleep.
hav been dozing off in lectures.n in buses,while im standing.

my eyes are onli half open now.

just suddenly feel like blogging.
feeling as though i've not been here for a long while n lost contact with the outside world.

anw,besides skol work tiring me out, there were lots of events tt took place last week since fridae onwards.
stayed over Niaima's house, Jenny & Caitlyn's bdae dinner n Bianca's mum bdae.

i actually attended Bianca mum's bdae dinner with her family.
which i thought was pretty courageous of me.hahaha.so bhb.haha.
cos it was simply me n her family having dinner together.
so apparently i was the onli outsider.
considered,re-considered n contemplated over it.n finally decided to go.

well, i did feel honoured to be invited for it.
though it realli made me crack my head over the decision to go or not.
i shall talk about the rest some other time, when im more energetic.

im pleased this week despite of all the tons of projects making me lack so much sleep.
i can't wait for tml to come.
cos i already miss tt girl so much.
not tt im bottling anything upset inside.
just tt everytime i see her it naturally makes me wanna smile, even though sometimes i realli dun have the energy to do so.=).

my heart smiles.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 6/06/2006 05:15:00 PM :: link

Monday, June 05, 2006

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tired.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 6/05/2006 08:09:00 PM :: link