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Thursday, June 01, 2006

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todae ain't exactly a very smooth going dae.
i was upset,traumatised,shocked by everything i knew then.
n plus i was very tired.
with my mens n alr lack of sleep from doing projects n tutorials.
everything just wasn't right.

i decided to ask.
i do feel better now.
less upset at least.but i've yet gained back all the trust i had put in.
it takes time i suppose.

but im still very tired.
from everything.
to the extent, sometimes i just wish tt when i cross the road,some car can just knock me down n spare me from all these work.
im realli tired.

but everytime tt thought crosses my mind, i'll always think of my mum n Bianca.
cos i can't bear to leave them.
the onli 2 people who can make me try to stay strong n live on.

time's passing so fast, unknowingly.
i dint even realize tt after next week is 2 weeks term break.
no matter wat, let's just try to hang on k?

never give up.=).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 6/01/2006 10:30:00 PM :: link

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

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feeling a little sleepy already.
anw, todae the RTM project went rather smoothly.except tt i made a mistake again.
n i actually dint realize the mistake until i was home n already bathing.
did harped on it for a while.cos it was a repeated mistake.of wat happened on the same project, just last week.

but i decided.
to just let it go.cos what's done cannot be undone.
all i can do now is to make sure i dun make the same mistake again.

i feel so relieved after the rtm project presentation.
like a heavy burden lightened off my shoulders.
it may have seemed like an nothing unusual project, but i guess wat i've gone through over it did made me wanna do my best for it.

another fruitful learning project. standing firm.
it's important to voice out ur opinions.esp in a group.seldom anyone in the group would be able to read ur mind, unless ur good frend is in the grp too.
silence means consent.
if there's anything ur not certain, i tink it should be discussed openly as a group.
if the idea is objected, at least if it turns out to be on the right track, u won't regret tt much.
cos u would be able to say, see i told u.;P.hahaha.

thinking too much of consequences leads to hesitations.
n hesitations would onli cause the problem to roll into a snowball each dae.

making the same mistake twice realli made me reflect on myself more.
how can anyone be tt silly enough to commit the same mistake twice.
well, i did.
but everyone fall.just a matter of how high u fell from.
i fell from a high level last week, but todae i fell from an even higher level.

but it dint discourage me.instead, i feel much more firm now den ever.
im getting it into my brains now.wat i should have done n will do the next time round.

never should hav lost myself in the situation.
i am who i am.

never lose yourself in the predicament.
stay firm.
tink of the positive outcome n not the worst outcome.
do wat u tink is right n best for the group.
do the things tt u won't regret.
im always right behind u.=).

btw, im not feeling upset or anything.
im feeling rather happy i learnt so much last week n todae through the project.
just some things i feel might be useful.=).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 5/30/2006 02:14:00 AM :: link

Sunday, May 28, 2006

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why such a big hoo ha.
feeling a little frustrated.

my mum always comes into the room n tell me,"can i off the light so ur brother can sleep?"
n it always makes me very irritated.
todae, its getting worst.
they are suggesting we move the com to the living room.
i've yet voiced my displeasure about it.until they seriously discuss about it again.cant be very bothered just now cos i was still doing my project.

anw, i tink its stupid.
cos if we move it to the living room, theres the tv.which means, theres gonna be lots of noise from the tv n the com when we play music.not to mention theres my mum's radio in the kitchen.
n my mum's so gonna kill us for blasting the music n tv.

ya, tts the stupid hoo ha of the dae.

anw, i've just completed my RTM project.its realli completed.
including my speech for it.
gotta start on the next project soon.which is marketing and EFMA.
both are due the week after next.

i cant wait for wed, fridae n saturdae to come.
hai.
yesterdae seems so long ago.
wed seems so far away.

was a little pek cek in the afternoon.but onli for a while.
so i went to de-frustrate myself watching video clips.haha.
the video clips we took at koh samui and pulau ubin.
n i started laughing away.den im back to normal already.hahaha.
the power of video clips.hahaha.

i tink the pulau ubin one made me laugh a lot.haha.
the koh samui one made me miss koh samui a lot.
the sun, the sand, the beach and the tan.hahaha.

the holidae was realli good.
cos at least, when im upset or wat everytime i look at the photos or video clips, it always cheer me up, at least a little.
but everytime i tink about the time i spend in the holidae, it never fails to make me miss those times a lot.

during the holidaes, everytime im smiling n laughing.
after the holidaes, often im grouchy, sad, tired n stressed.
struggling everydae to hang on.hoping the daes to meet Bianca would come fast.
n hoping the daes i get to spend with her would pass slowly.

skol's going at a pace so fast tt i feel i can't catch up.
one dae, im done with this project.the next dae, i have to start with another project.
im seeing no end at the projects so far.
occupied to the core.

when are holidaes coming.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 5/28/2006 09:50:00 PM :: link

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Do I make you proud-Taylor Hicks.

just had my own supper.quite tired alr.
todae's 4th sat.n Niaima came!=D.tt made me exceptionally happy.haha.
i knew she was coming, but forgot to mention it this morning.haha.

everything was ok.other than, i had quite a bit of problem hearing myself on my own amp.
i was relying on hearing myself from the mains.
n also, the usual muscle ache/ fingers cramp after playing "I'm Not Ashamed".

anw, Niaima played for a few songs.
n i tink she played well.i like her style.

but, no songs realli struck me.
like make me feel very touched or anything.maybe becos im not very in tune.
the onli song tt did touch me a bit is "With All I Am".
when i sang the part-You're the reason that i live,reason that i sing, with all i am.
which is also one of the songs Bianca played.

anw, im actually feeling quite fugly still.
after playing the final song, i felt so so so tired.
n it just brought my mood, inside, down.
bt i dunnoe wats bothering me.my project's more or less done, i've done my tutorials.
so skol work shudn't be the main cause.

den again, maybe it is.
cos skol work has been tying me down.

impressions is the hardest thing to get out of me.
once carved, it becomes etched in my mind.

im a hard nut to crack.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 5/28/2006 01:17:00 AM :: link