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Saturday, December 18, 2004

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leaving soon to get some stuffs.might be rushing down to CSC[sfx] later at 4.30 to doll my dearest godma jenny up as a clown for carolling later at a old folks home.
my bro sent everyone a letter on intercession.
yest,over supper maddie was whining abt,"how?" abt intercession.apparently no one turned up. i was at SFX for fr joachim's talk.so was luke n my bro.

so i was a little fed up la.becos we spent the efforts to meet ppl up to do stuffs for this group,YIG, but yet it seems to be a waste of our efforts somehow.esp for the t-shirt which realli i dare say i put in my effort to do it to the best of my abilitites.
it took weeks to hav it all done.n the "best"thing was,the min we shifted frm sfx to the youth center.everyone seem to hav vanished into thin air...
mayb they din put in a lot of time n effort into this grp ttz why they happy come nt happy go.

i honestly dislike tt kinda attitude.it pisses me off.a lot.
i understand intercession is boring.i myself feels so sometimes.
but i dun even see the effort they do for the grp.everytime when maddie ask do they wanna come for intercession still they say "yes".but they dun turn up.contradictive huh?
they seem to be some kinda "RUN-AWAY BRIDE/GROOM". they accepted the propose but dun turn up.whahaha.im goin crazy.maybe they all hav intercession-phobia?

ah ass man.there are some ppl whom i realli realli dislike a lot n who has this kinda attitude or mayb they r afraid to lead intentions..those i realli dislike to the core.wahahaha.theres one whom mayb i din like her first impression given to me.shes quite quiet kind.bt the 1st time i saw her,i din like her already.whahaha.im quite an ass at times.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 12/18/2004 01:41:00 PM :: link

Friday, December 17, 2004

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ah,my shows starting in another 13 min time.mm.Bianca's workplace has a job offer as a waitress.bt havta go for an interview on sundae.its at a hotel in Bugis.pays veri gd.$6/hr on weekdaes,$6.50/hr on wkends.n i havta wear court shoes.
i tink its nt bad la.bt she says its ver veri tough.n they most likely off me onli on festive seasons.=o/.

anw,i had this crazy dream.a kind taxi uncle gave me a lift.on a rainy dae.ttz all i rmbr now.whaha.sorry.
anw,my mother is like trying to ask me get a easy job.cos its my first time afterall.naggy.
heard my cousin who is onli 20 this yr has job in the bank n its paying her $2000 a MONTH!...
shes capable aint she.she started off as a waitress in a hotel too.heehee.

im tempted not to work again.heehee.i dun feel like goin church tml.heehee.im shit ass i noe.
was practising guitar 4 the X'mas songs for carolling this sat,n i still cant pluck wif my fingers properly.darn it la.
on wed,when we were all practising,i realized how stressful it was to play guitar beside Julian.whahaha.its a compliment actually.
i was strumming the guitar den he turned to lk/stare at me.n i stopped strumming.muhaha.
he was in a bloody shit foul mood on wed.myabe becos hes sick or mayb becos Maddie wasnt there.i dunnoe.=o).

when hes moody,dun bother toking to him.he will give u the feeling "wat".haha.maybe he jux lks fierce/dao when he dun tok=when hes tired.hahaha.agree?agree?maddie?
hahahha.ah shes not in spore.ah shit.
im craving to study.i dunnoe why.ever since O's was over,i felt like studying still.haha.going crazy.hahaha.
tml,since im free i shall go shop for some X'mas prezzie for ppl.hahaha.boring at home.
but im quite short of cash.sheeh.so prolly will onli get prezzie for some while some will hav a card or something?hahaha.cut dwn expenses everydae already.

im being nice todae.i shall let my bro watch hes show finish till 1am[later] den i watch my korean show.heehee.hes watching some veri cheena show,3guo yan yi.abt wartimes kind.boring. n funny thing is he keeps laughing!?!?!...
my show has started at 12.30am.will end at 2.45am.heehee.
which was the reason i dint wanna work in the hotel which recuits ppl to work frm 6-2am.a banquet.i would miss my show.hahahha.

my korean model show is beginning to interest me a lot.whaha.looking at how the models keep fit n cutting down on food.onli thing i would say is ,"WOW!".
they onli drink some kinda drink replacing 2 meals n hav a quick,short meal a dae.[my bro is sleeptalking again]
n they can go gym everydae to work out not feeling veri hungry.gosh.superwoman.
hahaha.sigh sigh.bt they seriously lk gd.their figures are realli wow too!

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 12/17/2004 01:16:00 AM :: link

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

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giving,sharing.true.most of the times i havent done tt.most of the times i do tt onli to my frenz.[those whom i consider are my frenz].i dun do tt to people i dislike though.
giving opportunities,i do tt.but not the typical way[constantly doing tt].
example,to Shaun,i finally crossed over the he sabo me online thing n gave him a chance to prove he has changed for the better.well,apparently he did not prove me tt.n it all comes back in a min[the sabo].

so maybe i should try doing it the typical way?...haha.

another example of the opposite[as in sharing a lot].
i had this very very very good friend.whatever she wanted/like i would get it for her[onli those within my means la].
n what was the result?
she told me off.she feels im treating her like my boyfriend!...
and tt was when it all came to an end and i stopped talking to her for a veri veri long long time.

den again maybe tts still not the meaning of giving and sharing.muahaha.ass me.
sometimes i feel so self-pity too.wahaha.=oP.im always ticked off.whether i think it is right or it is wrong.or izzit me feeling over-sensitive.or izzit the over-whelming self pity at times.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 12/14/2004 01:24:00 PM :: link

Monday, December 13, 2004

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my brother's insane.
hes sending ppl sms to ask me go get a job instead of staying at home to watch tv!!!!
he sent me one too when we were both at home!
quite stupid n pissing.becos i dun wish to find one yet.im still trying to recover from the stress cum tiredness of O's.anw,my mum is nagging me to do tt too again.no thanks to the bloody dad i hav.hes the mastermind.im quite tired todae.

went down for my dental appointment n waited for 1 hr+ n the dentist told me its bcos of my flu cum cough tt caused tt toothache.n these entire "process" took onli 5 minutes.so he kindly washed my teeth ttz all.
ate lotsa sweets jux now.craving for sour stuffs.

anw,i will find a job when im ready[which is when im totally finally over wif playing]...
i havent even rested for a month n there are these people doing SILLY stuffs.
im pissed.
im gonna scream a lot todae.no thanks to the idiots.
i c no point doing such silly stuffs.im not one influenced by tt kinda stupid things.
if i want to go work i will.isnt it obvious.wats the stupid point.i will onli get veri frustrated wif ppl nagging at me.n i will not veri nicely shut them up.at least for todae.veri moody.veri.

im finally getting some peace out here.after intense studying frm July,it was realli tiring.n u want me to work when i havent even gotten a month of rest YET.u r jux asking for more trouble from me.maybe they[family] havent felt how stressed i was then.NEVER.all they saw was me studying.n nag at me when i fell asleep in the living room,taking up the spaces for ppl to sit to watch tv.
im feeling terrible now.i hate them for doing these kinda stuffs.im not the onli one having going thru' these O's i noe.but give me some peace will u.im veri tired.

tired.='(.tired.when i needed someone's shoulder i couldnt find one.makes me seems like some asshole or a crybaby.so i would hav to hide in my room and scream n cry under my pillow.
n interrupted somemore.i hate them.insensitive people.
i hate them.headache comes.
pillow seems to be a veri good listener.hearing me scream.

REMINDER
[TO those who received my bro sms---PLS do not come to me n try asking me to find a job,if u intend to.i will either scream at u or not answer u or[if not in bad mood] tell u dun ask.so dun bother doing so.]

still veri tired.EYB!

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 12/13/2004 05:32:00 PM :: link

Sunday, December 12, 2004

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feeling good n happy todae.esp yesterdae.went for chalet.lotsa ppl were there.n guess wat.Bianca n me were so super funny n playing all sorta of game we used to play in skols when exams were over.yeah.everything.u name it we did it.waha.

me n Bianca n Alyssa[Aly] went cycling n until we met Jenny,Jenny took over Aly's place.cycling.me n Jenny was riding the 2 person seat kind.was quite fun,cos all i had to do was steer n Jenny was cycling all the way,n veri fast.some parts i oso cycle her la.wahaha.n she would steer using her body weight at the back.veri scary.kept making me scream.den back to chalet,we played Jenga.it was a all girls game.cos the guys were setting up n some went to prepare the stuffs.
n forfeit was strip off ur top,left bra la.so i was the first to forfeit tt.no big deal mah.i wear sports bra to suntan anw.n next was Bianca.waha.sorta being raped by me n Jenny.muahaha.
den we hid in the toilet cos Jenny wanted to take photo of the 2 of us in sports bra!!...
den i shun bian[on the way] pee while Bianca stood behind the shower curtains.wahaha.quite pathetic la.

den after tt was quite tired.lied on bed n watched VCD,Love On A Diet.had a lotta ppl coming in asking me to eat liao la.but quite tired.took my medicine.
but went out veri soon gt hungry.Bianca was veri nice,she was like asking Augustine to take food.den the 2 of us sat by the steps n eat.muahaha.
midnite,Maddie was quite sick so Julian n her went back.den me,Bianca continued to play our games.n we played this splitting leg game cum scissors paper stone.gosh.
terrible leg muscle aches.shud be frm the cycling.

me,Aly,Luke,Jane,Ling continued to played silent mahjong till 6.while Bianca n Augustine headed to bed.Aly n jane was SUPER high.the 2 of them kept peeking at each others "tiles" n laughing.gosh.n i realized Aly always whack ppl when she laughs.n so happens tt im always beside her.tsk.ouch.
den i woke up 8.30,n the first thing Bianca did when she woke up was tickle my feet.she was veri high.VERY!
den soon everyone left leaving me,van,aly n Luke.den we ate a whole big watermelon.n packed the room.n still cant find Maddie's jenga piece.
anw,this is 1 of the most enjoyable chalet stayover i ever had.cos i seem to have known Bianca a whole lot better.n gt myself a new gd frend.wahaha.more like wrestling partner.heehee.
time to watch tv.EYB!EYB!

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 12/12/2004 07:59:00 PM :: link