i actually meant blue pen hor people...haha....suddenly i realized that i typed wrongly..heehee........
came online cos realli nothing to do i realli dun hav any mood to study todae...and oso there isn't any hmwk...i feel like playing bball.... all the studying realli tense me up till i go crazy over results...i thought of msging [IT] and try to joke around with her... but den i dint in the end, veri scared i mite interrupt her studying......i tink im quite clueless whether she still having prelims not...i suppose so lah since the lights in the hall was on during recess...hmm.... kinda miss Michelle[IT] Best friend.... she veri cute one...last time she chao ji quiet den later she started to go high with me... but haven't been seeing her veri often liao... cos she oso having prelims... sigh....
i wish that time would quickly fly and now is the time for our YIG camp... i realli enjoyed myself in the camp last year... i still remember something veri funny... i woke up and started eating lolipop rite Maddie?... i tink i kana scolded and everyone had to wait for me to start brushing my teeth b4 we could all start the say and kayak....hahaha....real funny... =P.... see!...now u all noe that i REALLI LOVE SWEETS LOTS!....hahaha......[sorry im a little cranky up there]....
mm....todae my mama cooked sweet corn/corn soup...hmm...it was reali SWEET!...hehee.....i love that soup most man... tts y my mum cooked it todae... she wanted to jux da bao den later she asked me what soup i like and so she could cook it...haha... i tink the whole family hav had 3-4 times that soup since last week... haha....tink i veri dua bai leh......=S....
actually i've had something to post about now lah but on a second thought, i wouldn't post it liao....so i tink i'd beta get going!...so practise my guitar....
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jux finished skool... which wasn't that great lah... that freaking Ms Teh{art teacher} made us stand for 15 minutes becos we did something wrong and we apparently dunnoe wat lah..and she wunt say....damn it man...she siao one siah... i tink shes more temperemental den me loh...cos after we sat down and do our work, she started joking around!..."..."....
I've gotten back my E maths paper...i scored 29/50.... though i did better than the previous test, i wasn't at all happy becos...Mrs Ong hinted A maths gurls that when she marked A maths paper, she wasn't able to use red pen at all"... which means no one passed... quite expected that i wunt pass... but i jux felt veri uneasy and angry...a bit unhappy as usual.... lets jux hope i pass my physics... im realli praying that i pass my physics paper...i dun wanna rang Julie and myself shi wang...but if i fail, den....suan le loh jux try harder next time?....
todae for Art class, i had a great time toking to Sheila for 2 & 1/2 hours...she was asking wat i tink about lesbians[butch,gurl or wateva lah] getting together.... i dint answer straight lah...took a little time to think b4 i speak... but my answer was actually i dun realli dislike them but i myself personally feel it is wrong loh... i really sorted out my confused thinking of the past... believe it or not,[Luke]... u r the one who helped me sort out my thinking.... and jux becos u said," jux keep trying!"..... though u dint quite meant it for my relationship stuffs, it helped.....=).....
i thought i should neva ever let HISTORY repeat itself again like wat happened to me and Angela...
I realli wanna change myself from inside to outside after i settle with my exams.... this time, im realli set for it... i will realli change myself and be wat God Created Me to Be... and i shall remain a straight..... i dun hope for much afer i change...jux onli one thing, I dun wanna lose my good frenz... and i dun wanna change myself becos of others influences....[Luke]," Dun let others influence YOU".... ;o)....
BacK By M3,
Joyce
Joyce at 8/25/2003 04:59:00 PM :: link
Sunday, August 24, 2003
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last nite was 4th saturdae as usual.... nothing veri happening this time for the 4th saturdae... cos when i tried to be high, either i will jux dun hav that mood or else [IT] jux wunt get high!....oh well... nothing veri surprising to me liao cos, she can onli get started being high by Maddie.... she gets along real well with Maddie... but it jux makes me feel weird... cos presently, on one hand, I'm trying to ''forget'' her... in the sense take away the feelings.... but on the other hand, She jux makes me look weird wheneva she gets high with others.... but den again, maybe im being to sensitive....
hmpf!... a little upset over that lah...but nvm..... becos i dun tink i hav the right to stop her from doing anything she wants to do and i dun tink I should be interfering in her freedom to hav any good frenz or wat....
for 4th sat, im completely moodless or maybe moody?.... i dunnoe.... cos after being taught some A Maths stuffs by Maddie b4 the mass, everything about maths appeared in front of me...i cant get it off my eyes.... and it keeps me veri irritated and very headache siah!...and the most often thing i saw was all the "square root 5+ 2square root 5".... i dunnoe why that lah but jux veri headache when i saw it.... my brain was realli full of that.... Maths is realli getting me veri tensed and i tink im realli going to be crazy over Maths....
about [IT], i dunnoe wat to say leh... jux that i still finding myself veri weird when im with her but i've got to say that I"M getting better in the mind..... all the weird stuffs haven't been appearing often.... i tink Maddie and Mummy Val noe what i mean... and im realli getting quite alrite liao... jux that still i will get jealous when shes close to Maddie....and onli Maddie... but i will not let myself get destroyed k people!....yao dui wo you xing xin!.... i will get myself rite!....
{Luke}...
Thankz for what u've adviced and told me.... appreciated it....=)....
{Gerri}...
Thankz for your concern...im alrite...=o)...
Smilez Alwayz!,
Joyce
Joyce at 8/24/2003 01:27:00 PM :: link