cant get to sleep....weird....ate 2 blue panadols and cant get to sleep...so unusual... i did actually fell asleep at 11.10 but i woke up at 12.25 thinking it was 6+a.m time for skol... after 12.25, i realli jux cant seem to sleep anymore...rolling about thinking and thinking of wat to do so came online....
i went to see a doctor yesterdae[Wed]...given 2 daes mc...but i will be heading for skol tml...cos my best fren,Zilei having her prefect investiture...hmm.....so i do or die oso mus go....cannot miss it... told my mum she scolded me stupid.....Zilei oso say i stupid....got mc still wanna go skol....hmm....well I'm stubborn wat can they do....heehee......
i got real worried over a silly thing..... "when will i die?"....
tt came to me after i did the survey.... so scary....err.... i so scared i will leave this world when im still young like 20+... and i cant live till old age with mi best frenz... i tink im getting cranky up there in the brain....but still its a sooner or later....
i think i always answer my own questions.... tts y u ppl reading mite find everything veri contradictive.... cos i give a question and answer it myself in the way i want it to be like and turn out.....
feel like playing some sports now... been a long time since i last played sports.... missing the times when i always play netball for inter class competition... i've given some thought of taking my gold star survivor test...maybe somedae this yr if i hav the time... it was a pity i failed it the first time... seriously it was hard to me cos...of the speed everyone was swimming....real fast and my competitors were male...onli female was me.... but tt was long time ago liao....when i was Pr 5....
come to think of it...i jux realized that i onli learnt swimming for 1+-2 yrs of swimming...so fast advanced frm beginners to gold star.....actually i took up swimming with Andrew...but he gave up when he reached Gold or Silver.... but i continued....
i picked up bball when i was in Pr 3.....i practise everydae after skol in the evning 6.30 on while waiting for my mum to fetch me... i stopped playing when i was in Pr 4 and went on to learn netball becos,the bball post was replaced with two netball post so i was left no choice.... from Pr 4, i had no seniors or wat...cos i joined CCa netball 2-3 times and quit and joined atheletics instead.... but netball was learnt for fun,picked up thru previous Bball skills for shooting.... in Pr 5, for interclass netball, we had some sec 2 past I.J pongol gals came in to train us for a few weeks.... we went out of skol to train,without informing our parents....and someone's handphone was lost....my mum came down chided me and insist i go home,which i did not until my dad came down...cos she used to cane me alwayz....
from then on, i neva dared to go training for netball out of skol or with frenz....i trained in skol itself b4 skol starts and after skol... well i dare say netball was definitely the sport for me... cos im willing to brave the pains and veri enthusiastic in Netball... always suffer the pain while playing interclss and training...i've 3 big scars on my kneecap from playing netball..... it neva did fade away...
in sec 1, i joined table tennis which neva interest me...first choice was badminton....but ended in table tennis.... i alwayz skip training....i did enter skol team but was kicked out for not going trainings... haha...
sec 2,still in table tennis...neva turn up again... i skip trainings....so veri heck care la.....
by mid yr or later, i "resumed" playing bball..... until now.... but i stopped lately cos of cts,coming exams.... hai....
too bad im not musically talented...heehee....but Andrew is...he picks up instruments real fast but one thing bad bout him is, as a guy he doesn't quite like sports and dun play sports well.... My big brother is good in maths...mayb tts y we dun get along well since we are different in all aspects.... in the brain,mind,physically etc.....
my relatives alwayz alwayz says Andrew and i swopped personalities.... usually gurls are musically interested kind and not sporty tt kind...and guys are sporty not good in music... so tts wat we are....in the opposite....haha
jux edited some cos im bored cant get to sleep and dint quite complete it jux now...
1. Full name: Lim Jue Hui, Joyce Ruth
2. Nicknames: uncountable nicks
3. Eyes: black>?
4. Height: 166-168cm
5. Hair: BLACK?...a little brown?
6. Siblings: 2 BIG BROTHER
7. Do u like to sing in the shower?: no...toilet too echoey
8. Do u like to sing in The Toilet? : wats the diff??still in toilet wat
9. Birthday: 15th November
10. Sign: scorpio
11. Address: Rivervale drive Blk 192C etc.
12. Sex: female
13. Righty or lefty: right
14. What do you want in a relationship most?: love,concern,attention,security[if able to get it]
15. Have you ever cheated on someone?: no?...dunnoe?..
16. Marital status: single
17. Do you have a car?: ya...in my dreams
18. What kinda car do you have/want?: dunnoe wait n see and u will noe
Favourite Questions :
19. Movie:my sassy girl 1
20. Song: Victor Chen-Girl,Zhang Shan Wei-Give Me 5,Fann Wong- Wo xiang xing
22. TV Show: hongkong shows certain korean shows
23. Actor: dunnoe
24. Actress: Fann Wong
25. Food: Ice cream counted?
26. Number: 7
27. Cartoon: Slyvester and Tweety Mysteries...no longer shown
28. Disney Character: Mickey mouse
29. Colour: Baby Blue
Love Life etc :
30. Do you plan on having children: yes....but if onli i can bear and get married lah
31. Do you want to get married: dunnoe
32. How old do u wanna be when you have your first child: i planned at 25 but tts if i get married!
33. How old do u wanna be when your married: dunnoe b4 25?
34. Would you have kids before marriage: no
35. Do you have a b/f or g/f : no
37. Do you have a crush: dunnoe
38. Music/TV? Or (pick which one you prefer) : TV
39. Guys/Girls: guys?...
40. Green/Blue: blue
41. Pink/Purple: neither
42. Summer/Winter:summer
43. Night/Day: day
44. Hangin Out/Chillin: neither
Others :
46. weird saying I have: huh???
47. what school do u go to?: SJC...
48. have you ever taken drugs?: no
49. What's a major turn on for you?: talking about everything about a best frenz...
50. How far would you go on a first date?: dunnoe
51. The PERSON you know who is... Most Blonde: no one
52. Which 6 people do you trust and are open with the most?: hmm...... Mummy Val, Julie, Luke,Maddie...tts all
53. What do you think of soul mates?: dunnoe
54. is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf?: no!
55. what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about?: stress...last nite onli...ahha
56. what's something about guys/girls you don't get?: how they can get so weird sometimes and serious
57. are you happy?: no
60. Love or lust: love
61. Silver or gold: SILVER...
62. Diamond or pearl: neither
63. Sun set or sunrise: sun rise
64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping (to swim in the nude): nope
65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes....given by certain ppl onli
66. Do you have any piercings?: no
67. What colour underpants are you wearing?: not gonna say
68. What song are you listening to right now?: Private number-fann wong & 911
69. What are the last four digits of your phone number?: 7081
70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon?: dunnoe anw....
72. What's your favourite sport?: netball,bball,badminton,swimming
74. What makes you happy?: being with my best frend
75. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get/buy?: none...i usually d/l songs into com
77. What's the best advice given to you?: secret....
78. Have you ever won any special awards?: no?
79. What are your future goals?: hmm.........i dunnoe leh
80. Worst sickness u ever had?: like now?...worst headache fever..no voice!
81. Do you like Funny or scaRy movies better?: funny
82. On the phone or in person?: in person
84. What song seems to reflect you the most?: dunnoe
85. If you die tmr who wud u leave everything to?: Julie and Val
86. Do u have any enemies?: dunnoe
87. What is your greatest fear?: leaving this world and gotta bid farewell to Val and Julie
88. Would you rather be rich or famous?: how bout a third choice?....be myself
89. What time is it in Albania now?: dunnoe
90. You ever been in love?: ....hmm.... sky veri blue...
91. Have u met Santa?: no....dun believe those "taleS"
92. E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking to use your phone?: siao!...wanna use use lah....haha
93. When was the last time you talked to the person that you like: erm...theres NO last time cos i like no one
94. Do u have any pets?: yes....myself....the biggest luo han cum merlion
98. Who sent this to you?: no one
100. Do u want your friends to write back?: no need...this thing take long to write
Joyce at 7/31/2003 01:32:00 AM :: link
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
1. Full name: Lim Jue Hui, Joyce Ruth
2. Nicknames: uncountable nicks
3. Eyes: black>?
4. Height: 166-168cm
5. Hair: BLACK?...a little brown?
6. Siblings: 2 BIG BROTHER
7. Do u like to sing in the shower?: no...toilet too echoey
8. Do u like to sing in The Toilet? : wats the diff??still in toilet wat
9. Birthday: 15th November
10. Sign: scorpio
11. Address: Rivervale drive Blk 192C etc.
12. Sex: female
13. Righty or lefty: right
14. What do you want in a relationship most?: love,concern,attention,security[if able to get it]
15. Have you ever cheated on someone?: no?...dunnoe?..
16. Marital status: single
17. Do you have a car?: ya...in my dreams
18. What kinda car do you have/want?: dunnoe wait n see and u will noe
Favourite Questions :
19. Movie:my sassy girl 1
20. Song: Victor Chen-Girl,Zhang Shan Wei-Give Me 5,Fann Wong- Wo xiang xing
22. TV Show: hongkong shows certain korean shows
23. Actor: dunnoe
24. Actress: Fann Wong
25. Food: Ice cream counted?
26. Number: 7
27. Cartoon: Slyvester and Tweety Mysteries...no longer shown
28. Disney Character: Mickey mouse
29. Colour: Baby Blue
Love Life etc :
30. Do you plan on having children: yes....but if onli i can bear and get married lah
31. Do you want to get married: dunnoe
32. How old do u wanna be when you have your first child: i planned at 25 but tts if i get married!
33. How old do u wanna be when your married: dunnoe b4 25?
34. Would you have kids before marriage: no
35. Do you have a b/f or g/f : no
37. Do you have a crush: dunnoe
38. Music/TV? Or (pick which one you prefer) : TV
39. Guys/Girls: girls...more talkative and on terms
40. Green/Blue: blue
41. Pink/Purple: neither
42. Summer/Winter:summer
43. Night/Day: day
44. Hangin Out/Chillin: dunnoe
Others :
46. weird saying I have: huh???
47. what school do u go to?: SJC...
48. have you ever taken drugs?: yes siao
49. What's a major turn on for you?: dunnoe
50. How far would you go on a first date?: dunnoe
51. The PERSON you know who is... Most Blonde: no one
52. Which 6 people do you trust and are open with the most?: hmm...... Julie,Mummy Val, Luke,Maddie...tts all
53. What do you think of soul mates?: dunnoe
54. is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf?: no!
55. what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about?: stress...last nite onli...ahha
56. what's something about guys/girls you don't get?: how they can get so weird sometimes and serious
57. are you happy?: no
60. Love or lust: love
61. Silver or gold: SILVER...
62. Diamond or pearl: neither
63. Sun set or sunrise: sun rise
64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping (to swim in the nude): nope
65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes....given by certain ppl onli
66. Do you have any piercings?: no
67. What colour underpants are you wearing?: not gonna say
68. What song are you listening to right now?: Private number-fann wong & 911
69. What are the last four digits of your phone number?: 7081
70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon?: dunnoe anw....
72. What's your favourite sport?: netball,bball,badminton,swimming
74. What makes you happy?: being with my best frend
75. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get/buy?: no idea none
77. What's the best advice given to you?: secret....
78. Have you ever won any special awards?: no
79. What are your future goals?: dunnoe
80. Worst sickness u ever had?: how i noe
81. Do you like Funny or scaRy movies better?: funny
82. On the phone or in person?: in person
84. What song seems to reflect you the most?: dunnoe
85. If you die tmr who wud u leave everything to?: my best frens, Julie and Mummy Val
86. Do u have any enemies?: dunnoe
87. What is your greatest fear?: leaving frens
88. Would you rather be rich or famous?:neither
89. What time is it in Albania now?: dunnoe
90. You ever been in love?: dunnoe
91. Have u met Santa?: MR SANTA OF COZ LAH ! BUT THAT WAS LIKE LONG TIME AGO
92. E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking to use your phone?: HAHAZ ... WHEN E.T. EXISTTHEN COME AND TELL ME OKIE
93. When was the last time you talked to the person that you like: no miniutes
94. Do u have any pets?: yes....myself....the biggest luo han cum merlion
98. Who sent this to you?: no one
100. Do u want your friends to write back?:anything
Joyce at 7/30/2003 09:13:00 PM :: link
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Joyce at 7/30/2003 09:22:00 AM :: link
..........
hihi there.....im quite bored...todae will definitely be another boring dae for me cos...I'm sick AGAIN.... took my temperature since last nite....it jux keeps remaining at 37.9-38.0...so jux a slight fever....but my throats hurts like shit... cant speak much... and hav a block nose...it realli BLOCKZ air going in....haha... and real bad headache.....keeps spinning around whenever i look at things the veri first minute.....
im so tired....yesterdae was being "scolded" by big bro again as usual for not passing him the remote control.... damn sucker.... i couldn't find my towel[bathing] and undergarments cos my mum dint wash it.... so frustrated.....threw my things and went into my room..... was thinking ,"why do i hav to suffer such nonsense...in skol veri stress liao , come home gotta do things and listen to nagz, all the complains[mum and broz].....think i super machine?. wonder-woman?...."........damn f*** man.... arhx i gotta stop typing now....my head spinning liao....come back later......
BaCk By M3,
Joyce
Joyce at 7/30/2003 07:01:00 AM :: link
Monday, July 28, 2003
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i remember something jux now while playing guitar... last nite, i dreamt of Sandra.... so cool!!....
i was playing guitar for intercession with everyone and Sandra was sitting rite at the corner of the adoration room.... its so so so c00|.... neva had such a dream b4......
Joyce at 7/28/2003 02:54:00 PM :: link
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yesterdae we had some BBQ farewell party for the priests.... it was quite fun though there wasn't a lot of ppl from YIG who came... onli 13...but well It was veri fun lah... we had ABBA'z imitation branded...haha...all no "ba" one...=P... no offence k.... the ABBA >>Julie,Gerry,Alvin,Andrew<<<.... the 2 gals danced and Alvin pretend to play piano, Andrew pretend to play guitar..... Alvin was a joker...he "play" and halfway wave hand to the crowd....haha... that was real funny.... the galz were great.... they danced well...;o)....
i went a little siao after their performance... started playing riddles with Geraldine[Gerri]... haha...all the lame words came out of us manz.... haha... i was cracking one riddle to Gerri den, Julie who hav heard and know the answer liao told her the answer ..... haha....almost strangle her....heehee..... den i went to talk to Julie rubbish while she was "pinching" apples.... haha... she ate 6 slices...but i thought it was 6 whole apples instead of slices....haha....i will get her and Vanessa apples for b-dae present next year....hahahaha.....=P......
after de-brief, some left so left me, Maddie,Julie,Jane,JB and Andrew..... den Maddie came out with some Neopets stuffs...she adopted Julie as her pet,Cat and JB as dunnoe wat...Jane "adopted" me as the Luo Han... Maddie started "feeding" her pets...haha....i started becoming bored so was learning some LUo Han moves from Maddie... tried to feed me Marsmallows but failed...haha.... cos i ate too much marshmallows already haha.... Julie kept eating it instead.... haha even had Maddie to try and stop her from eating Marshmallows before she fall sick....heehee..........
The marshmallows was veri awful after eating too much...feels like foam...
Learn a part of the Abba'z dance move...where they keep spinning... haha...cos i was bored.... i kept trying to spin properly and try not to get giddy... and take small steps... which couldn't make it lah...cos my legs naturally try to stretch real far.... haha... after all this den shang chang liao.....sigh.....heehee......
this morning i had 2 phone calls form my fren...asking me to print project stuffs.....i got so furious cos she called me early morning print stuff....den told her not going skol cos not feeling well.... tts y im here updating blog.... haha.... having a bad headache and fishes swimming in my stomach.... bad sorethroat... so told my dad he was like" okok"... and he left for work.....
but the main reason not going shud still be TIRED!,Sleepy....
Andrew din't go skol either.... he couldn't get up... haha....same same..... but at least i got up earlier then him.... cos i went to take medicine...1 antibiotic, 1 panadol.... i almost choked on the panadol...haha....drank it down with water too fast...haha.....
Andrew jux went out...dunnoe where he go lah.....so now im HOME ALONE.....kinda miss skol..... yes!... i gonna miss SSS todae manz....todae is Science SSS.... wateva lah....but think need mc...but nvm lah tell my Dad to write letter....=P
ok...its time for me to go take my medicine again.....CYA!
BaCk By M3,
Joyce
Joyce at 7/28/2003 01:16:00 PM :: link
Sunday, July 27, 2003
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so tired after last nite'z 4th Saturdae...the songz were great esp...Uncle Leo'z 'GO GO GO GO GO!'.....heehee... hes alwayz so CUTE!!!.....
nothing to do...woke up at 8.45a.m....watch tv now listening to Fann Wong'z "private number".... i used to be a Fann Craze... serious....haha... but not veri lah now...not even a craze...but i like her songz afterall...
yesterdae after 4th sat. Ling was toking about skol'z belt etc..veri ji dong... but oh well who wouldn't loh... kana given pink form when u r not wrong... prefects' belt is definitely low...[will not mention the name]........ hai.... but well
>>>Ling<<< it's alrite one lah u wunt die under a pink form hand...k.... those with low belts would definitely be caught somedad.. jux a matter of when....=)... cos the whole skol would be slowly checked personally by Das, Chan and that turtle.... so no worries lah.... but if its prefects', theres nothing we can do....nro can they do.like Julie said, they are under Ms Low's hands...nobody dares to touch them.....
Fridae
fridae i went for intercession.......i felt like seeing someone after skol so i went for intercession.... i dint go there to pray kinda thing.... but ya...so i went...... was veri tired after skol that dae... i felt like sleeping during intercession... when i saw the someone i felt more troubled than ever... definitely reminds me," Joyce,you must learn to be independent...dun rely on me... learn to solve your own problemz...".... maybe thats where the growing comes...
Saturdae
I went for skol'z swimming meet, i came last for every event.... wahahaz.... i begged Ai Ling to let me off dun force me to swim cos i was having first dae "Galz"... instead, she begged me to swim... ". . .".... she almost cried cos i kept turning her down... so i went ahead and swam with a bad cramp.... for the first event, after getting out of the pool, i had a veri bad headache... so i forfeited my second event for the house.... i went for class event, i've let down the class for sure....but nvm... i did my best, theres nothing more i can do...... we lost...
4th Sat was super unhigh for me..... onli laughed for a while and faded veri soon...=(
[IT] was rite at the corner of my eyes... realli realli "confused" inside when i peeked at [IT] during mass..... i still dunnoe whether i shud flee or fight the battle.... troubles alwayz come my way... [IT] no longerz stays by me.... i hav onli Mummy Val.. the more i keep thinking ," [IT] is no longer with me" the more tears flows down....i cant help it... i dun wan [IT] to leave me... [IT] says,"No...I jux not toking to u for a while...i will tell u y next time"...
to [IT] it may be jux nothing no bad mood,no sadness when not toking to me.... to me its the opposite of those feelings...
Sundae
feel like doing something silly... cutting my hair...but nvm....jux crazy.....
feel completely like a GUY now.... wateva i do its like a guy, not pretending to be a guy...i look like a guy,behaves like a guy like Mummy Val'z keep telling me not to be.... be more si wen.... but i cant cos im by nature like that... so chor loh... trying to behave like a gurl...
but veri weird cos..if i behave like a gurl in the "outside" but in the inside i dun feel like a gurl, wat does that make me?.... weirdo?....
starting to fear.....I'm losing the battle to MYSELF when i hav yet got myself ready.... sounds stupid... but ya...tts the way i seriously feel cos i dunnoe wat the hell i've been doin'...
I DUN WANNA LOSE!!....
|oS!NG? or JuX a F33|!nG?,
Joyce
Joyce at 7/27/2003 10:46:00 AM :: link
