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Saturday, November 05, 2005

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pnw-was so fast.
everyone was playing so fast,some i couldn't catch up,some i couldnt figure how to strum or pluck.
some i just stopped n stone a while.
n the singers were going faster,faster,faster.
i was in a fluster,flustering,too flustered-stone.

i initially stoned when they jux went so fast.
i realli dint noe how to play.n i dunnoe whether to ask them slow down or not.by right the more u repeat the song u go slightly faster each time like a build up.so i jux dint play la.hahaha.

tml i've got vigil.
my prediction is i will sleep after playing.haha.
todae already damn tired not to mention tml.
would hav to rush my report n tutorials.

K.O.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 11/05/2005 02:03:00 AM :: link

Thursday, November 03, 2005

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i was so glad everything went well.
having Bianca and Gus with me during practice made everything well.

when i was playing,she wasnt in my mind anymore.finally after 2 days.
anw,so had lots of fun playing during fellowship.
wiping dirty stuffs like beehoon and sweat and saliva on Cait,Naima and Gus.haha.
cos Cait was having beehoon everywhere around her.
hahaha.

was so tired when i reached home.hahaha.
but yet i was happy.
i wish everyday can be as happy as yesterdae.
spending time playing,laughing and eating with the 2 of them.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 11/03/2005 06:43:00 PM :: link

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

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im realli tired todae.
cos i couldnt fall to sleep last night.
jux tossing n turning on my bed.
lotsa things kept flowing into my mind.

i dun feel well=sick.
at the mention of her name.
dunnoe how i will react tonight when i see her for practice.

i made no promises to whether i would try to control the negative feelings tonight,
or control the feelings.
cos i dunnoe whats gonna happen when i see her.

im pretty surprised.
she actually didnt post anything about me todae,or maybe not yet?
i dunnoe,not worried about tt at all in anyways.

assumptions.
assume.
ASS.U.ME

i dun treasure her as much as she does.
my world exist with only Bianca and Gus.

dun shed any for me.
cos i dun wanna shed any for u.

it's bright, sunny n white clouds out there.
but inside me,it's dark and gloomy.
people change.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 11/02/2005 01:53:00 PM :: link

Monday, October 31, 2005

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i read Madeleine's blog.
my conclusion was,she thinks my world revolves ONLY around Bianca.
which i dun think so.
it revolves MOSTLY around her,but not totally on her.

i wasnt angry when i read the whole entry, but i was quite disturbed by this part of her entry,

"i guess in joyce's life, the only person that matters is bianca. i bet, if i have shown the expression to andrew, she wouldn't mind it AT ALL. well, if her life is only about one person, i can't help it. nothing against bianca, but i just don't reallie like the things that i am subjected to."

i dun like it at all.
sounds like theres no one i have in my eyes.
is my mum not included?

i dare say that i have placed the whole expression matter behind me, trying to accept that expression.
but seems like it has to be raked up.
why?
you can't put it behind u becos i said maybe u can try to control it?
so how about i say this now, i will accept it.

n i gotta announce this to the whole world here now, i do not hate you Madeleine.
alright.
i disliked you but not hate you.
u need not make me happy in future.
for whatever matters.

we will remain as acquaintances.
or as band members.
or as friends.
whichever you prefer.

you're in those 3 categories to me,nothing more nothing less now.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 10/31/2005 09:46:00 PM :: link

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if tomorrow never comes.
haha.wat a depressing start off.

dun realli hav much to say todae.
life's pretty boring.
havent stepped out of the house much.other den to buy food,nothing else.

i can't live in solitude.
but sometimes i seem to be living in it.

i've so much contradictions.
countless.

how can life be without a perfect lunch.
that's how i feel.
just thinking of my Naima now.
havent been seeing her since wednesdae.
might not be able to see her for up to a week or more.

wondering if she's coping.day after day.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 10/31/2005 12:56:00 AM :: link