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Saturday, September 09, 2006

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still tired.

but i hav quite a few things to say todae.
so here goes the first.
i realli enjoyed todae's talk by Fr William Goh.it was abt gifts.

which was veri meaningful n it solves my question why i give gifts for no reason at times.
when u love someone,u would want to give the person gifts.
theres no reason for it at times, i suppose.
n its easy to give the gifts.
to me,its oso something enjoyable.

the other thing i wanna say is actually an apology.
since wed,my mood has been rather bad.
tink its cos of my pms.

so, this is to my Niaima.
sorry girl,for having to get upset over the slightest matter.
n showing u my black face time to time,todae.
i noe i keep apologizing.i dunnoe how u will take it,but i realli mean it.
i dun mean to keep showing my black face or anything.

i noe u're tired too.
sorry for not controlling my bad temper again.
i hope u wun keep it to heart,ok?
i love ya girl.muack!
=).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/09/2006 01:06:00 AM :: link

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so im tired again.

but i hav quite a few things to say todae.
so here goes the first.
i realli enjoyed todae's talk by Fr William Goh.it was abt gifts.

which was veri meaningful n it solves my question why i give gifts for no reason at times.
when u love someone,u would want to give the person gifts.
theres no reason for it at times, i suppose.
n its easy to give the gifts.
to me,its oso something enjoyable.

the other thing i wanna say is actually an apology.
since wed,my mood has been rather bad.
tink its cos of my pms.

so, this is to my Niaima.
sorry girl,for having to get upset over the slightest matter.
n showing u my black face time to time,todae.
i noe i keep apologizing.i dunnoe how u will take it,but i realli mean it.
i dun mean to keep showing my black face or anything.

i noe u're tired too.
sorry for not controlling my bad temper again.
i hope u wun keep it to heart,ok?
i love ya girl.muack!
=).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/09/2006 01:06:00 AM :: link

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK.

im damn bloody fucking pissed off now.
wat the heck.
i jux dun understand why i've to put myself thru' this stupid thing.
first is the fucking paycheck thing.
next i hav my mother who tells me off over tt fucking problem.

I JUX WANNA SLAUGHTER PEOPLE NOW.
LIKE RIGHT AT THIS MINUTE NOW!!!!
fuck.

im realli like on the verge of crying everything out to release tt stupid anger inside me.
if i dun get this fucking problem settled tml, im jux gonna quit.
fuck.

i want no hassle.
no trouble.
no idiots who doesnt noe how to count hours n minutes.
no one's gonna make me wait to get my rightful pay.
NONE OF THIS.

the more i talk abt it the more angry i get.
shit.
i dun understand why my mum jux keeps irritating me.
why does she tells me to stay out of trouble when im not at fault.
why should i keep silent,get all those problems which i did not hav to bear wif last year when i worked.
WHY.

why did she hav to raise her voice at me to tell me something which i dint do wrong.
why do i hav to go thru' this after a whole dae of work.
why.
why is everything going so wrong.

i jux want my retreat.my Niaima.

im contradicting my words which i told Bianca earlier on.
but now its a whole different story.
if i hav to go thru' all these shit from all these people todae, i rather get my rights back.
or rather insist on getting it.
i dun wish to be fucked like this.making promises for reasons im not even sure why should i.
like i dun even get anything much out of it anw.
compare it to all these trouble tt happened todae.
it can hardly make it up.
my family,my church,God n time.

which apparently my mum doesnt see it from my point when i told her in the car.
honestly n obviously, money is not my priority nor my biggest concern.
i jux want things to be easy,simple,n done efficiently.
tts all im asking for.
is tt veri demanding?
no.

if i hav to go thru this every week to get my pay,im quitting n finding another job elsewhere.
so wat even if i can get my pay anytime n anywhere.
but wif a guy trying to hand me my pay without knowing how to change hours into minutes n taking up so much of our time,causing us to be late for practice.
to me its stupid.

we are all tired.
tts why im so pissed off.

choir was actually fine.
in fact,good,at least to me it was.
but its over the same thing i was so angry abt ,before choir,after practice ended.

i hope i will be calmed down by tml.
im not giving anyone face.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/06/2006 10:53:00 PM :: link

Monday, September 04, 2006

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came online n suddenly i jux saw so many turtle nicks.haha.kinda weird.
anw,work was good n bad.
good cos i saw Niaima.but she was in the lounge la.
n oso i saw Adeline todae!hahaha.
she seemed to hav dropped by to the teahut onli.hahaha.n she was of some help as usual.=P.

but was bad cos of the work itself.got quite fed up for a while.
ended late at 10.35pm.cos something cropped up.

im pretty tired.
but dun realli feel like sleeping.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/04/2006 11:47:00 PM :: link

Sunday, September 03, 2006

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im tired.
fridae went work den growth den went IndoChine Empress Place to celebrate Julian's bdae.
which i dun wanna talk abt it.cos something damn saddening happened.
n went to Lau Par Sat for supper until 3.30am.onli reached home at 4am.
sat went work till 10pm n headed down to CSC for vigil.but onli played for the 1st pnw which is until 12.45am.had my parents to fetch me home.

todae went for morning mass, had lunch wif Bianca n her mum, den both of us went Wild Wild Wet.
i enjoyed it though we dint do much.most of the time we were at the man-made wave relaxing n suntanning.
den bought dinner over to Bianca's place to eat n watch Jin Sanshun.its damn funny.
watch halfway den closed my eyes n rest a while.
n decided to go home soon.

so here i am.
dead tired.
jux wanna sleep.

next week's work all the way until sat.my onli off dae is sundae.
n tts abt it all.
going to rest now.
bye.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/03/2006 09:07:00 PM :: link