|mpress|ons of An Express|on

Thursday, September 02, 2004

............

i went to Rachel's house to bake browny[for once im entering the kitchen making it MYSELF] for tt stupid bithdae boy Julian Soh.but i could not reach him on his phone.so i called Maddie.and she said his phone died on him!...so i actually hav to risk bringing the browny home.itz a big risk cos my brothers n father mite jux pinch on it ANYTIME ANYWHERE!...
so im trying to save my voice now so if they do touch it,i will scream at the top and highest pitch of my voice at them!...

quite tired.tml was planning to go for steamboat and so as to give Julian the Brownies as bdae prezzie.and even called Luke told him ok can go.its at 7pm.
but den i realized i had PTM at 7pm too!...arh...so jux go for the staying overnite loh.hmmpf.dumb PTM.

anw,todae when me and Rachel were at the bus stop[my house] i happened to see Avril Hong opposite.she was carrying someting and jux kept flinging into the air playing and fidlling wif the ting la. den i was like tinking,to tink she would do something like tt.cos she gives me a impression tt shes veri serious and wont do something like tt.=oP.i mean jux a impression la.haha.den i jux kept looking at her till she walk until so far away i cant see her liao.whahaha.

honestly,i do tink shes quite impressive and realli inspires me.shes a swimming captain,yellow house captain,in the councillors commitee and plus shes in the best class in sec 3.
impressive isnt it?...
and PLUS, shes quite a holy person.shes quite a active catholic in St Anne's Church according to what i hear from Jo.this realli shows tt she's veri good wif her time management[ttz how she inspires me now] and realli handles things well.im veri impressed.
shes jux like another Madeleine Tan[Maddie].heehee.

shes like a duplicate of Maddie.i mean in the sense tt they can manage time so well and things seem to be in good hands under them,and they can still manage time to be an active Catholic in church.
ImPrEsSiVe!!!!!!!...
now im asking Maddie how to study smart.hmm.interesting.

anw,i tink i've seriously settled down wif my decision of where to go after O's. i want to go CJC[initial first choice]. cos it excels quite well in the sports and plus affiliation.it should be quite managable to get into CJC.and i like the Uniform.yeahie.the principal=Brother Paul is interesting and funny.haha good.yeahie.CJC my first choice still.

->the human can only take in 45-1hr30min of study time and after that nothing goes in.-<
Maddie said so!...ok ttz studying smart by following this theory/logic/wateva!=o).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/02/2004 09:12:00 PM :: link

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

...............

tired.trying to do emaths.and i feel like a primary kid trying to do a sec 4 work.becos i cant do the sums.my mind ain't concentrating.still trying to get concentrated wif studying again.after the prelims setback,i've got little confidence left.sigh..
im not in the mood to play at all.i want to study and produce good results.ttz practically the onli thing on my mind.

was damn angry jux now i shouted at my mama and er ge.the 2 of them was so noisy.one was talking non stop[mama],trying to tell my er ge want to eat dunnoe wat or not.den er ge jux kept,"nonononono"...n they jux continued like tt for a min?...or maybe less.den i screamed at them,"bu yao cao la!!"[shut up].den they shut up liao.irritating me.
im mad todae again.

anw,my Li JiaWei is engaged/going to be married to Ronald Susilo!...he proposed to her yesterdae...=o).yeahie.

anw,i was toking to this someone online the dae before on msn.who was toking exactly the way my friend talks.jux becos they are veri close.and i came to realize tt this person is actually trying to imitate how others tok.cos when i started using "yeahie" and "EYB!EYB!".he did exactly the same thing when he talks to me online.i've actually tried to hint to him a few times stop copying how i tok or wateva.cos i realli ahte it.and i tink either he was realli tinking im jux kidding wif him or he jux has a poor memory tt he cant remember tt i told him stop imitating me.

so i actually got quite mad wif him and told him stop copying how tt particular person he imitated toks.den he started inventing stupid tings.dotz.
but well,it was better tt he invents his own style of talking even if its lame or stupid cos tt would be his style.sheeh.yeahie.
i've yet tried out whether he still remembers wat i've told him.hmm...

yeahie,so now everyone noes i hate ppl to be imitating others.i prefer ppl wif their own style.and not ppl imitating others style of toking..
it was kinda irritating la.sheeh.but i mean like if u want to imitate can la.jux dun let me find out or u dun imitate the EXACT WORDzzzZZ.he was copying all her words u noe ttz why i was so mad.hai.i almost want to shoot him ok.but its kinda over.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 9/01/2004 05:37:00 PM :: link

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

................

i jux woke up from my nap.so tired todae.well we had Teacher's Day celebrations.which overall was not veri enjoyable la.except for 3 performances which i enjoyed.
Performance by...
1)Councillors
2)5B
3)4B and C[combine]

yeahie.4B/C was a dance by Kristle Cheryl and 2 other whoeva i dunnoe.haha.Cheryl and Kris danced well man.heehee.+claps-
5B put up a dance too.was veri nice too.i onli noe 2 dancing.Jolene and Natalie.
the onli one who caught my eye was Jolene.she looks so like Zhang Hui Mei kinda race and wif her hair tied.sheeh.and she Danced extremely well.shes veri hot dancing.hahaha.
her figure was good and she realli caught my attention thru'out their performance.geee...

the counsillors!...haha.Dary was dancing while Avril and another whoeva sang on stage.hahaha... it was enjoyable cos Dary looked so cute on stage.hahaha.well she did well la.=o).of cos one wat.my guai meimei.haha.jk jk.
and another point why it was enjoyable.Avril was singing!!!...i meant cos she sing and her voice is good!no other meanings ah.hahaha.shes got a non-screechy voice which most people have when they sing high notes!hahaha.shes veri constant.i like her voice...yeahie.she sang during mass too.was quite ok la in church.but she sound soft in church.yeahie.

the onli thing i dun understand abt her[Avril] is why she can be so friendly when shes talking to the whole skol on mic but shes like quite dao when she sees strangers.haha.so weird.ironic.
but i think she would be able 2 lead the skol quite well.she noes when to do certain things.
well,still i think shes a good counsillor.she seems responsible[she seem but i think she IS] and everything...
bleah.sheeh.why am i talking about Avril now.hmm.whahaha.
im afraid of dreaming about her at night.heehee.not nightmare but jux dreaming of her la.was quite a weird dreams i still remember one till now...

anw,i dint go back to my old skol!...errr im bad gurl.was too tired to go la...came back and plop to sleep.hahaha.
we are back!!!YIG.haha.we will be starting at a brand new place,Nativity Church Center.well,its a good thing.cos we can reach out to new people and at the same time try to bring back the past members more easily.since they are so interested at new places always.
but timing gonna be changed will be earlier den in the past.

[the colours seems unmatchable cos they are chosen wif the kind of colours i think they reminds me of!haha.so bear wif it la.=oP.]

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 8/31/2004 05:25:00 PM :: link

Monday, August 30, 2004

.........

skol has such a bad way of portraying their style/way of showing us students wat they want us to do.todae they denied us those who failed A Maths frm going to PPP A Maths.wow! isnt tt like "GreaT"???
so ttz their way of trying to get the students motivated to sutdy huh? im totally amazed by it?!?!?!?!feel like strangling them when they denied our rights.jux becos of the killer paper,they want us to realli fail O Level A Maths paper by not allowing us to go sit and learn our mistakes in the paper and everything?!?. i was tinking,"F*** Off now Basket!!!"

sheeh.anyone who hears this would get mad.so wat even if i did pass onli 2 subjects.so wat?u want to deny me to study now?i tell u get lost.F*** OFF!
their way of portraying their style of teaching the students pisses me off.they are not teaching like tt.its called threatening.try me.i dare say i studied and everything.liek what more do u want?!!?!?!
while Mrs das and a.low were "scolding" us,we[4D] were like discussing away wat they saying and wateva la.n she[mrs a low/tan] said we were not bothered?!?! IF WE WERE NOT BOTHERED WE WOULD NOT BE DISCUSSING.stupid.maybe we were wrong to tok while shes toking but dun anyohow MAGLIGN US!
anyhow say we are not bothered and wateva.arsehole.and jux becos we were not looking veri upset or wat doesnt mean we are not bothered or wat wif our results and dint put in effort for prelims u BASKET!!!!!!!!this kinda ppl realli deserves to be screamed at.

damn pissed noeing tt my efforts hav been accused of being not there.
tt was bad enuf of being accused.to tink she was picking on 4D again.freak ASSHOLES.
expect us to put on sad faces or even cry for u to see ah ass.so wat.cry n later being said of shedding crocodile tears??.wait long man basket...
we are not so silly yet.

basket freaks.damn deserve to be asked to F*** off loh.this kinda teacher realli bu yao ye ba le. its beta tt we dun hav them loh.get lost better.we are not being self righteous.we are jux trying to put some justice into our skol life!
it makes no justice in skol jux by letting idiotic teachers punish u or scold u for something which u have been falsely accused of isnt it?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?n jux becos we stand up for ourselves we are called being self righteous!...i wonder if she has brains.and should jux sack her.she doesnt hav eyes to see or a heart to feel who are the people around her.its nto onli those she teach who are not studying.we[4D] aint taught by her.she has no rights to say all these to us jux based on those ppl's efforts she see and not ours.

Lao niang is pissed.she accused some of us's efforts put in for prelims.the surface of our results are noting.she onli sees that we did badly for prelims.but neva noe how much effort we put in for some of us.so should shut the crap up n go home!!!

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 8/30/2004 04:10:00 PM :: link

Sunday, August 29, 2004

..................

my com's so laggy feel like slamming it.=o@.im not in the mood to sutdy.all the amaths sums i tried yest n todae.i cant focus to solve it.sheeh.brain's rejecting infos and everyting now.
anw,my er ge found the money.he went to find it at sfx n everyting couldnt find it.he was damn frustrated n walked out of the house n go withdraw his own money to replace the lost money.n was crying and everyting.
he gave me the money n everyone else.but we[me n my mama] returned him the money la.it aint his fault wat.yeahie.
n guess wat.my grandma told him to pray n he actually found his money!!!so amazing!!!
he found it in his own wallet! hahaha.he checked everywhere but not his wallet.heehee.i tink he was over the moon.

Jerlyn asked me to tutor her emaths during the september holidaes.i thought of rejecting her,cos im not too good in emaths afterall.plus im not good n sure abt my sec 4 work.but still dint quite reject her la.told her will discuss the matter tml.
btw,i forgot to mention.i met Alvina n her Bridget at PS after lunching wif Raph...she was asking me if Raph was my BF.which i obviously gave her the "er.wth!" look...yeahie.

ANYWAY,i remembered something Maddie said to me on fridae after breakfast.
she said that i have something bias against guys.hahahahha.now i do agree.the other dae i dint agree cos i dint tink so.but now i do agree.heehee.
considering that i treat girls so much nicer den i treat guys[no not in love wif any gurls i treat nice],n everytime faults i find lies wif the guys.yeahie i tink im bias to them.
wahahaha.=oP.

n it can either be on purpose/deliberately or jux coincidental tt guys hav so much faults for me to pick on.hahaha.
personally i tink is deliberately[muahaha]...

its a gradually ting tt i become became the me todae[a totally bias gurl against guys].yeahie.
i still do think guys irritates me la.they jux happen to try to tickle me wif their jokes which are quite sarcastic or suaning.n i will jux get mad over it.veri petty rite?...
but tt is onli towards GUYS/MALE.whahaha.its totally i different matter when the jokes are said by gurls.instead i would laugh over it n make a bigger joke out of it.

haha.now u c how bias i m towards guys!heehee.yeahie.
n plus more to come.by the time i die.i bet i would be like a anti male liao.whahaha.doesnt mean i will neva fall in love again la!!!haiyo!siao.i still want to get married one!hahaha.
anw,im quite mad wif someone.ttz why im here toking abt all this anti guy stuffs.seriously angry tt i dun wan to go out wif him anymore.will puke blood.=o(.
and i jux deleted/block [IT]'s contact in my msn list.i tink its realli time to remove tt [IT] outta my life COMPLETELY.so from now on,i've got nothing more to do wif tt person at all anymore.
sound bent on severing the ties??.well i am.

and im getting better at guessing nicknames online each day man.=oP.im a "Genius"!!whahahaha.jk.but the beta at guessing people's nicks on msn ting is real.hahaha.now i dun even hav to bother to go ask people,"hey!wats ur nick stands for?"...i tink i can jux guess rite thru' it.
the advantage to guessing thru' these people's nicks is tt it saves u from all the "Ji Pua" chats wif "Ji Pua" people.when they want to say dunwan to say.tts a real big advantage to me.haha.
cos it will save me out of more troubles.hahaha.

sigh sigh sigh.why dint Val scold me?sigh sigh sigh.why?

i tink even though i wun like it if she did scold me,at least i would have felt so much easier than i am now.now i feel a little GUILT RIDDEN.
i wasn's surprised that Maddie dint scold me or what.jux wasnt taken aback la.not trying to say that Mummy Val ain't as understanding as Maddie is about my results.although shes always much more angry over my results.jux that now i will feel still feel bad abt disappointing them all esp Val.im not saying that i won't listen to them to get over it and move on.cos i noe i will be killed if i continue to be so "dead" over the prelims results.

i noe if I Don't move on,I will never Grow and it might even cause a greater disappointment to others.

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 8/29/2004 09:36:00 PM :: link

...........

my er ge lost some money my grandma passed to him.went to find it liao.mm.
anw,my toe looks like scales!cos of the cuts.haha.realli scales.heehee.

i tink MSN nicks r jux a cover for wat ppl wants others to noe.its like i want that person to know what im thinking of but jux tt i dun tell the person and instead let the person sees the nick and noe it himself/herself.isn't it?
most nicks people have are like,"missing u","i love u","get lost" and everything.including mine,"I Blast".
isn't it?
the world's changing everyone beats around the bush jux to tell a simple thing.like I Love U/I Like U. isn't it?

sheeh.well,i guess everyone is like that.even me.so do i still have the rights to say all this stuffs?

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 8/29/2004 04:39:00 PM :: link

..............

im little burnt.veri tired.
went for 4th sat,quite lethargic.but quite hyper for awhile wif Van.she realli noe how to make me laugh.haha.
a little sobby todae again at the thought of gonna tell Mummy Val abt my results.she dint burn me or stare at me.

anw,Wild Wild Wet todae.was quite sian la.the place was so small.nothing much to place aorund wif.plus i got injured on my foot.hav got a deep small cut on my foot.n lotsa my skin were cut due to the rough floor surface they hav there.dint quite like the place.dint quite make me relax la.moody at times dun wan to tok but apparently they[Maddie,Benedict n Julian] dint like me quiet n do noting.made me eat their bread n asking me wats wrong n stuffs.but noting was wrong i jux dint feel like toking n was burning hot.

yeahie.but still thankz[to Maddie] cos i tink shes quite broke but still went out wif me.=o).i appreciate tt realli[although i pulled a long face].

im still feeling low although i've gone thru' the Val's obstacle[telling her prelims results].
cos she dint scold me or anyting.well,i dun realli like being scolded but i jux feel weird cos she dint do anyting n she was telling me to Get OVer it and stuffs like wat Maddie said encouragement.they do tink likewise tt it's hard to get over it n move on 2. well looks like i muc pull myself together fast enuf before i get kicked outta the game.

im low low low.anw going out wif tt guy doesnt work.so stressful tinking when hes gonna ask me the question y aint i studying[although he dint ask todae].=o(.
mus go for more Macs Breakfast wif Maddie often to chill n relax.=o).

now im sure i will be able to stand up again and prove im capable of achieving what i've set for myself.I Can Do It right;o)!
Da Jie n Mummy Val are still the best=o).

BacK By M3,
Joyce

Joyce at 8/29/2004 12:59:00 AM :: link