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its pretty early in the morning n here i am.
was veri tired jux nw on my way hm n when i reached hm.
was searching for my pick.cos i knew i brought them home yest bt forgot whr i placed it.as usual i guess.
bt found it in my mama's room.haha.
this time round i wasnt as worried.cos i rmbred veri clearly i brought it back hm.haha.

so aft washing up i decided to catch up on Corrinne May's blog.
cos Nick was telling me she has been updating,jux tt the top part of her blog is always the pg on her new album.which explains y i havent read it for so long.cos everytime i reach the pg n see the Beautiful Seed cover,i wud close it.tinking she hasnt updated yet.

anw,so ya.feeling veri inspired by her.well,nt tt its the first time.bt jux tt this time's more inspiring.
amazed by her she can stay faithful n be a witness to Him n yet be so successful in her singing career.God works in His own ways tt sometimes we dun understand how i guess.haha.

anw,i was tinking thru some tings jux nw.
abt us.
tot abt how un-compromising i can be when im wif him.
lk im always wanting things done my way.n most of the time he gives in to me.
no,nth happened jux nw.bt i was jux reflecting abt tt aspect of me, tt sometimes i cant stand either.

we were talking abt going church tml.i was saying tt we shall jux head for mass at St Anne's tml morning,together wif hes mum n Nico, hes sis, joining us halfway aft her catechism class.
so he was pretty reluctant cos he doesnt lk attending mass there cos of the choir.cos it doesnt help in making him wanna sing along.n to him, the choir matters a lot.whereas im jux wateva la u noe.as long i attend mass,tt will do.
so i was lk,"eh...bt to me it doesnt realli matter as long as its near."
cos i was dead tired jux nw.n i jux wanna attend the nearest church wich obviously is St Anne's la.

so i was passing a remark tt maybe next time we can jux go different churches mass.
den he said no la,if hes alone he'd attend mass wif hes mum, which is at St Anne's.
yeah,so tt was wat triggered tt little reflection i had n hav,still.

well,last wk we woke up early to go Risen Christ church in Toa Payoh.
n it was a long journey there man.an hr plus.
he wanted to go there cos the choir's gd n tot of having lunch wif Julian,cos hes playing for the mass.bt anw,we dint get to hav lunch wif him in the end.
yeah.so even more i dint wanna attend mass elsewhr.cos of the journey time.

yeah.so tts the ting.
bt everyting's been going so far so gd.although some stuffs happened along the way.

everyone's been veri supportive of us be it gd frends,ppl frm sfx or frm our families.
bt sometimes i tend to tink too much.n wonder whether tts gd or bad.

bt u noe, i must admit tt im comfortable n happy being wif him.
n i love the way he look when he sings.
esp when hes focusing on singing to the audience of 1, God.
its jux different whn he sings to Him.even whn he sang to me,its a totally different feeling alr.n it simply doesnt feels the same.its incomparable.
nt tt hes nt singing as great,bt jux tt feeling brought out is different.

im glad i found u.
ur the second joy in my life apart frm my Niaima.=).
some ppl r jux irreplaceable.jux lk u both to me.

i guess i realized theres so much more to learn.
esp learning how to balance ppl in my life.

n i'll learn to grow wif u as well.
cos i wanna grow old wif u.



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Joyce