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spent so much time on restarting my com over & over again.
stupid.
trying to watch the korean vcd tt i borrowed frm Celestine.
managed to watch onli 1 disc cos the 2nd disc doesnt open.

realli tired.
freaking tired of guessing my own things.
can't be bothered anymore.
sometimes it might be jux my wild imagination.
but then again, my "wild imaginations" always seem to be reality.
anything just tell me in the face.

the biggest knot and problems in my life always seem to revolve around friendships.
and i tink maybe its because of i've got no boyfriend?hahaha.maybe!
or maybe some says it's my hot temper and whatever F*** pms.
or maybe it's just my character=ME?

anw,the word PMS has become my most hated word in my dictionary.
cos i always hear it, always from the same person.
and im hating it.=)
or maybe someday i might turn hating "PMS" into hating that "person"?
the drift is obvious to me.or maybe its just the person avoiding to speak to me?
i dun wish to care about speaking to the person too, but i can't stop not minding it.
the silence kills me sometimes.just SOMETIMES.
it's not as though i don't know that person well somemore.=(

anw,hopefully i won't bear any hatred for this friend in my life.
even if she does.=) but she won't allow it.i guess???
hahaha.

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am i glad to hav my dearest Niaima wif me.
upset,angry,sad,moody,tired...i know she will always be there for me.
theres always people out there giving me a pat on my shoulder,like Gus & Luke.
giving me a smile-Julian.


BacK By M3,
Joyce